From a young age, I witnessed what happens when power is misused, silence is rewarded, harm & abuse is hidden, and the perpetrator is protected at the expense of the vulnerable.

For years, I moved through life searching for a way to make sense of what I had experienced, as well as, the dynamics I also contributed to both knowingly & unknowingly. I had become like those who had hurt me as a means of survival & I didn't know a way out. I was seeking healing, justice, understanding, purification, revenge, redemption, forgiveness, & purpose but I didn't have the words or options for it yet.

Nothing fully clicked at first. I was in that liminal space for decades. Only seeing glimpses of what I had hoped would be relief but was far from it. In fact, things became increasingly more intense overtime, as the suppression was encouraged since it prevented the upheaval of the group structure from taking any accountability to radically eradicate the source of such turmoil & conflict. They were in fact, quite comfortable. My conundrum was that my truth-telling was a threat to the existing status quo, and therefore my direct sense of safety, provision & security. The only option was to endure.

Overtime, however, I began to notice repetitive patterns & grew quite astute at observation, complex analysis, contemplation, understanding psychological warfare & cross-referencing data, which later proved to be a tremendous asset for the path ahead of me. And do you know what I ultimately discovered?

The same misuse of power I had both lived through & caused was reflected in the world around me: in systems, in institutions, and in the ways, women & children were and still are historically, globally, institutionally, dogmatically, systematically & violently treated, especially, during the most vulnerable experiences of their lives.

That was when things finally began to shift for me, individually.

I was finally starting to see things clearly and the momentum from that moment still hasn't stopped. In fact, that clarity required me to begin confronting my deepest fears in order to move through outdated layers & models of identity I had once relied on.

My first pregnancy marked the beginning of that deeper awakening. It led me to forcefully and abruptly leave behind everything familiar, abandon my country, my material possessions & belongings, heck, even many loved ones, and trek forward into new territory. This freed up significant time for to dive deep into esoteric, metaphysical, occult studies & 'alternative' healing modalities and step into an entirely new identity & way of life.

It was my second pregnancy, however, that truly anchored everything otherworldly, mystical, & far-out into both form & focus. It kept my sight on those ideals yet grounded me back into the harsh truth of reality that was deeply embedded in my body. It showed me where I was still fearful, embarrassed, ashamed & hiding. Where I was still suppressing my voice & living in ways that didn’t consistently reflect the truth I claimed to be embodying when it didn't look good on paper.

For a time, I let that awareness turn into resistance and even further into suffering. Until I reached a point where I could no longer ignore or avoid it. I finally began to grieve, to rebuild myself even if it appeared to be imperfectly, to relentlessly pursue the path that would bring about resolution & to resurrect my self-worth and personhood from the ground up.

It was in that season, The Anointed Hand was conceptualized.

Women are not situationally & randomly experiencing "poor birthing and postpartum outcomes," they are being forced to endure and navigate through systems that were never designed to fully support them.

Many women enter motherhood never having gone through any rites of passage in girlhood, they are unconsciously groomed to accept & tolerate abuse (yes, even as birth workers), they are unaware that stepping into this role requires a profound & transformational shift in their core identity, & that they must assume a deep responsibility for themselves, their children, and the generations that will follow as a queen would in order to successfully, intentionally, and skillfully rule her queendom.

Without the right support and knowledge of what they should expect and how they should be cared for, many end up robbed of this sacred initiation and are left drowning in resentment, loneliness, crisis, anger, overwhelm and are stuck in generational cycles that refuse to be broken. I know this because of how I experienced this directly. Everything I lived, learned, and fought to understand became the foundation of my work so that other women would not have to navigate these transitions unprepared, unsupported, or disconnected from their own power & birthright.

That’s why I’ve created The Healing Chrysalis—a program designed to prepare pregnant women for the full transition into motherhood, through pregnancy & postpartum education that honors how true preparation for motherhood begins long BEFORE birth. My work exists as a bridge to show women that something different & BETTER exists with THEM at the center of it all.